and so i waited....and waited... (still waiting)

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around
You used to lean on me
The only other choice was falling down
You used to walk with me like
We had no where we needed to go
Nice and slow
To no place in particular

We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
The nights were clear for the first time that I'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there's you
And at least there's me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back?
To how it used to be

I used to reach for you
I got lost along the way
I used to listen
You always had the just right thing to say
I used to follow you
Never really cared where we would go
Fast or slow
To anywhere at all

I look around me
And I want you to be there
Cause I miss the things that we shared
Look around you
It's empty and you're sad
Don't you miss the love that we had?

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around
The only one around

We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
The nights were clear for the first time that I'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there's you
And at least there's me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back?
To how it used to be yeah
To how it used to be

june camp 2007
Sunday, June 10, 2007

5:35 PM
i stood waiting...but you never came...

So its over and done. 5 days of June camp.

Blood. Sweat. Tears. Literally.
I've so much to say, I’m speechless, I don't know where to begin and my mind's a blank. But I’m gonna try to blog anyways.

I’ve mixed feelings, emotional attachments and baggage. but, most of all, memories to last a whole year. Madam said to remember this feeling of euphoria and high, because months from now, we'll all need this feeling to continue on this journey, this long and arduous one. As we pumped and did our final push up and shouted "32nd", my tear ducts could no longer hold it back and I broke down. I cried for the people who's pumping with me, cried for the seniors and their efforts, cried for the ending of this camp, cried for the beginning of this journey. In the short span of 5 days, I cried buckets and almost everyday. I shed tears for the pain my fellow elects went through, for the sleep my seniors threw away just to refine the camp and help us to grow to our full potential, for my own incompetence and uselessness.

Throughout camp, I saw the love the seniors displayed, the love my elects showed and the burning desire the teachers and seniors have for us to grow as one council. Nothing could move me more than when they knocked it down and held in push-up positions for half an hour to one hour, just to push us to cheer to our limits, to encourage us. They took it upon themselves personally, the responsibility to teach us, and when we got it wrong, they felt guilty and took the punishment, they pumped for every council, did a push up for the past 31 councils in ACJC. They did all they could to groom us into the 32nd students' council and to pass the legacy down to us.

I really love them. Elects and 31st alike. But it’s bittersweet to see them pass down the legacy to us. During the 3G dinner, I saw something; the thing that the seniors are trying to hard to inculcate in us, the thing that madams say every council has. Its this bond that every council shares, I see the love the 31sts have for each other and this togetherness. This is why ACJC students’ council so one of the best, because they are truly one council, they understand it and manifest it in their actions. As for the 32nds, we walked into camp as individuals but we came out one council, and I know that with the passing of time, we can be just as good as the 31st, if not better, because we are one council.

Thank you 31st for believing in us when i could not believe in myself, thank you elects for trusting me when i couldn't trust myself, thank you God for helping me get through this week and pls continue to guide us as we become the 32nd students' council. Thank you to the teachers for guiding us throughout. To the seniors from the 30th and before, for coming down to give us encouragements and to share their experience.

To the 32nd, THANK YOU for all the encouragements you all gave me, when my physical strength wasn't enough to carry on, thank you for letting my encourage you because i learn from you too. thank you for trusting me and catching me when i fall, helping me to trust myself. THANK YOU FOR ALL THE FUN AND EXPERIENCE and whatever comes, let us walk this journey together for the next one year. i know we can do it, because we are one council.

On eagles wings.